IWANTTOGOHOMENOW.

an update on life.

july's almost over. i haven't updated in months. let's see...


bryant and i are finally over. after months of fighting and constant lies from him, he decided to break up with me. again.
i decided its the last straw. the past 7 months were a joke. a waste of time.
i'm done being played.
i'm done dating assholes who think they're better than everyone because they're HARCORE.
im done being lied to about who he's talking to and what he does.
plain and simple. i didnt trust him & he didnt give me a reason to.
especially when talked to me about trust, saying that he understands why i dont trust him & hes going to work on it...when he's clearly lying to my face about whats going on inside his house. especially when hes lying to the other girls he's with too.
i've never had hated for someone. i just plain out hate him now. yeah, its shitty of me to hate someone, but i dont have any other way to describe it.
bryant stahl; youre a selfish asshole. you will NEVER change. i dont feel bad for you. maybe someday youll grow up. you were SO right when you said you were still a kid.
i'm sorry i'm not what you want. i'm sorry im not a scene whore. i'm sorry i dont have stretched ears. i'm sorry i never came from the hxc scene. i'm me. i'm sorry you cant like me for me.

but enough about ex boyfriends...
i'm moved into my apartment. i brought winter and lilly too!
my room mates are cool. i love melissa and john!
melissa is this happy go lucky girl. she always has high spirits & cheers me up when im bummed.
we've been spending lots and lots of time together. yesterday we dressed up, went out to the mall & some new things. it was fun!
we even decided that once a week we're going to dress up & go out to eat & make a day of it. i am wayyyy too excited about it! lol.

john is really laid back, doesnt care what happens. he gives the best advice. hes pretty much calls all the shots when it comes to me and relationships. we share the same music interests and
share clothes. hahaha!

my life is finally getting put into place;
waking up early. getting things done. being in a better mood at work. back to drinking coffee every morning. hahah!
im finding out who my friends are & whos there just there because of who i'm dating.
i'm not trying to date anyone right now. im just letting that happen. if i find someone, then i do. i dont need to rely on anyone anymore. co-dependency is stupid. i can do things on my own. i like it that way too.
although some people are trying to date me, im keeping my options open. you know, just trying to have fun with friends.