IWANTTOGOHOMENOW.

life totally went and took a turn for the worst. i was the happiest girl in the world. i had everything i needed. granted, i lost some friends, i was still the happiest girl, ever. i had a job that i liked, a great boyfriend, and a handful of friends. what else could i ask for?

now i find myself here. my room. alone. with nothing. all because of a dumb fight. something i could have fixed. something i could have avoided. i could be with him right now. we could be happy right now. but no, all because i fell head over heels in love with him and all i did was worry about losing him, because things were amazing with us. i never wanted to lose that feeling.

now im stuck with nothing. i dont even know what to do anymore. im miserable. he's always on my mind. im wondering if he's okay. im wondering if he's thinking of me. im wondering what's going to happen from here.

how do you just give something up like that? someone you love so much? i can't. i dont give up either. especially when its someone i care about more than anything in the world and would do anything for.

bryant stahl, i wont give up on you unless you are dead serious that you are through with me. that's a promise ill keep. just like you promised me that the first time we broke up.

im so sorry for everything. im sorry things even ended up the way they did. if i could do anything to take it back, i would. ill never be able to forgive myself until you forgive me.