IWANTTOGOHOMENOW.

please excuse the shitty picture...yesterday i started my job at the olive garden. i ge to wear a sexy tie! besides that, it's a lot of work. i have to learn wines...body style, the fancy names, how to open a bottle, pouring, and what food goes best with it. we also have to learn what types of ingredients go into the food, etc. etc. its a lot. i feel overwhelmed. im the only one in my class who can carry a tray and has had waitressing experience. i think they have higher expectations of me than the rest of the girls in my class. so far i've pretty much mastered the p.o.s. station (register, placing orders) & table numbers with pivot points (where to stand at a specific table for order taking & serving). next thursday will be my first day alone, serving. i won't be broke anymore...FINALLY!

i want to say that things are good with my life, but right now i just can't. i managed to break someone's heart by trying to make myself happy. i never wanted to do that. needless to say...im not happy yet. things keep going up and down. phone calls with no answer, texts without replies. then sometimes i do get them and things are wonderful. i dont know what to believe or do anymore.